I don't really remember where I left off. I guess my last blog kinda left you guys in a clump of emotions and not really an answers huh. Well let's see....
  
     I have been going to my house a lot, not a lone, with people of course. We spent I think about two full weekends there just packing, throwing things out, organizing. I hated it but I'm glad it's getting done. Also it's depressing. No one wants to watch as people come into their house to throw things out, or any of that. It's your home, or is it? Is your home the building and the things in it, or is it the people that make the home? I'm very sentimental you see, so throwing things away was very difficult for me. I had to have my "helpers" do it while I wasn't looking. It had to be done that way or I would become a hoarder. I have the important things don't get me wrong, but the silly things that were my mother's but had no sentimental value to me, they are gone. I have piles. I'm going to have a garage sale, I think the second weekend in November, so follow me on facebook to see when it really is so you can come check it out. Ah, and yes, my kitties, they have finally found a home. Thank God.  I was so worried. So that's the house.

     New phone, new, well paying bills isn't my favorite thing. Also leaving a job because it's horrible hours isn't fun either. I'm in a new chapter I guess, or maybe the introduction. I wouldn't say I'm starting over, or even starting new. I'm just starting to stand up from being trampled on the ground by elephants. I'm a bit delusional, out of it, etc. I have many issues at the moment, but who can blame me. School, that's not fun for anyone, but I'm doing it! A struggle but driven by the hope that I'm making my mom proud, and staying strong so I don't fall apart anymore than I already am. I have some cool ideas. I'm going to take my mother's and my father's ashes (separately) and make glass pendants out of them. I also have some cool ideas for other jewelry, we'll get to that later.

     Things that I'm thankful for right now are carrying me through. I love God and He's been great, and always will be. My boyfriend, best friends, family, and seriously, tears come to my eyes just thinking about how blessed I am. How many people care about me to take care of me. I even found a place that I would describe as my dream job. No details for now because I'm not sure yet, but I'm volunteering on Friday. Things are looking up for now. I'm just praying for God to tell me what to do next. <3